Friday, May 29, 2009

so i kinda spent the whole of last night miring in melancholy, listening to coldplay's 'what if' and letting myself go, breaking down.

sometimes life just goes by so quickly and i get caught up in all the trivial things. then there are times when i'm okay with just vegetating, no deep thoughts, just lazing through time.

and then, a moment arrives. and the big issues that i've pushed to the back of my mind floods out of the floodgates. and the sadness lingers upon the questions. what am i doing with my life? what do i want out of life? what is my purpose in life?

i am horrible with people moving in and out of my life. i wish i were more resolute as a person and not so whimsical.


What if there was no light
Nothing wrong, nothing right
What if there was no time
And no reason or rhyme
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life

What if I got it wrong
And no poem or song
Could put right what I got wrong
Or make you feel I belong
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life

When every step that you take
Can be your biggest mistake
And it could bend, or it could break
Well that's just the risk that you take
What if you should decide
That you don't want me there by your side
That you don't want me there in your life